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In 2012, I was lost. Lost in a professional sense with retiring my filming permanently and ending my first ever career. Lost in thought with all that time on my hands and actually lost in The Valley, no longer living in Hollywood. Throw mind in there too, add that to the list. SO, I (out of fear of the unknown) attempted to revitalize my xxx career one more time (that would make it around the 3rd or 4th time total). I couldn’t go back to ANY of the main adult agencies. Why? Because when you burn bridges so boldly and so fiery you have no way to cross back to them, there is no bridge to take. Don’t you understand how bridges work? Jeez.

AnyWAAAY, I had been with every agency, the worst (but most successful) one I had been with twice. Bleeh! You only dance with Devil once, well twice if you forget how bad that first “tango” was…oops. Devil being Derek Hays. Anyone in the industry knows what I am talking about and anyone who doesn’t ISN’T IN THE INDUSTRY. It truly is that plain and simple.

Really successful girls in the industry are with one agent. They are the cream of the crop, minus your classic contract-girl who is more a myth than anything. JESSICA DRAKE excluded. I never even heard of this man until 2012 which is odd, well more so oblivious on my part. The man is Mark Spiegler. He represents the “Speigler Girls” and yes you should feel as though I am talking about an elite super-hero alliance.

These are the requirements to be considered into the alliance:
-Be gorgeous or at least better looking than most.
-Be prepared to be a success.

This will happen differently for each girl. One girl will need to just be simple vanilla girl on girl pornstar (which in my opinion is honestly a dabbler) AND another girl will need to not exist with a DO NOT DO list, ya know, stuff they do not do. Well at least on screen. (Think gangbang, anal, interracial, etc. Your good old fashion hardcore pornographer. The legends!)

I am sure there are more on the requirement list but the most intriguing part of the venture to “Spiegler-ville” is initial meeting. BE SO LUCKY that you got a meeting, fuck, that you got a reply! The first meeting is on he phone. Speigler wants to talk about where a girl may want or see her potential porn path going. If you say the right things and he likes what he hears then MEETING #2…This isn’t set up on the phone then. This will be set up through back and forth emailing. It will be random, inconvenient and ultimately a test. Meeting #1 was not that at all. It was just a weird o conversation. (Not weirdo at the time, because its exciting to be given the time of day by this agent. If you can make that 2nd interaction which is in person this time, you are golden. You have proven you are not the flake that pornstars are rumored to be.

I didn’t make the 2nd meeting. Call me a flake or whatever but I failed the test. No Speigler girl title for me. Honestly I knew I wouldn’t be meeting him the second I got the meet&greet info. I would be a “project” for any agent, I mean not even the best publicist in LA could help me AND LORD DID SHE TRY. When I say help me I mean, change the way in which the public, the industry, and God himself knew me and my scene history. The fact that the name COURTNEY PAGE didn’t send Spiegler running for the hills is beyond me but I knew it meant doing some stuff I maybe wasn’t ready for or willing to do. I never did things in porn that I didn’t want to do (besides the male pornstars, they are trash) and I wasn’t ever trapped, sex slave style. For some girls this is the way but never for me. The day porn became something I didn’t want to perform anymore is the same exact day I announced my retirement. That night, after the shoot. I just don’t do things I don’t want to do. And when I felt I delivered my worst porn performance I stopped.
Long story short, YES I do anal, its pretty fun but I never did anal on screen. (Dildos don’t count)

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